When My Faith Was Tested
So guess what, I wrote a blog about a month ago, and it got deleted, but you know what it wasn’t meant to be. God led me right at this moment to write, so here I am. I will say the month of September for me was very eventful. It began with my annual check for my blood work, and I visit a hematologist since I have low white blood cells. My results came back, and of course they are low again. The doctor looked concerned, and he suggested I get a procedure done to do further testing. The procedure I was ordered to get done was a bone marrow biopsy, and was scheduled to go that following week. My mind filled with worry and next thing I know I was at Beaumont, but good thing I received anesthesia. In the back of my mind I thought the worse believing my results would be Cancer, it’s like maybe that’s why I have so many health issues as it is. I went the full week to recover, and boy was that painful!! I make it to Saturday starting to feel a little better, and I knew I had family photos with my boyfriend, so I’m like let me get myself together. The gag is....that was his way in getting me to dress up for the engagement festivities. It’s funny how life puts you through turns in one week. I barely could walk to walking into my now fiancé on one knee. He placed my family all around me, and as I type this I still can’t believe it. In summer 2021 I will be Mrs. Aliyah Brown.
I definitely was on a high from just getting engaged, but still at the back of my mind was my results. My visit to the doctor was coming, and my anxiety had got the best of me. I remember I was supposed to do LIVE Fridays, and got caught up in everything I postponed it. In my head I thought the worse, and didn’t know how my results would come out. Sitting and waiting at the doctor’s office, I finally get my results....I don’t have any bad news, but only not having enough bone marrow at my age, just a little deficient. Y’all have no idea how happy I was, of course I have to continue to be vigilant of my health, but thankful by my results.
Basically over the span of 3 weeks I had a testing of my faith, and couldn’t believe all that was happening within that time. YES. I got engaged within that time and still ecstatic about it, just now I am preparing myself to become a wife. My anxiety overall has been off the charts, it causes me to get in these moods. My season at this moment is to put aside my thoughts, my flesh, my doubts, most of all my fears and only put my trust in him, Jesus.
“Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge Him, He will make your paths straight” - Proverbs 3: 5-6